Right now, I should be writing a paper, I should be doing my math journal, I should be doing something productive, but I'm not and I have no desire to do so. Its been awhile since I blogged, so therefore I have deemed this to be of much more importance than doing anything mildly productive.

I've been having a dilemma. I'm at this point in my life where I don't know what I don't want to do with my life with absolute confidence, the only thing that I know for sure at this point in time is that I want to be a teacher, and a high school teacher at that. But what else? That's my dilemma. The last four or five years all I've wanted to be was a Family Consumer Sciences teacher, but now that I'm really doing it all, I've realized that as much as I absolutely FCS, the only reason I want to be an FCS teacher is because I know and love so many FCS teachers across the state and I want to be an FCCLA adviser and at this point in time, those reasons don't seem good enough. I'm just honestly so incredibly confused right now its not cool.

So I'm at a point where I'm trying to decide whether I want to teach history or math or if I should get both endorsements which will equal an ungodly amount of work. I always scored incredibly well on tests in English or Science, but for some reason I have no desire to teach them. I just don't know. I had a meeting today to try to get an idea of where I need to be for the next three and a half years and its crazy. You think you have so much time to choose what you want to do or what your major should be, but really there isn't that much time. The Social Studies teaching endorsement is 55 credit hours alone. That is the equivalent of taking over three semesters of strictly content area related classes and nothing else. If I wanted to go along with math, its 32 credit hours, and combined math and social studies equal 87 credits. Woah. That's OVER 5 semesters. Taking 17 credits a semester. And I'm a class behind in Math. Oh goodness. If anything has ever seemed daunting to me this is it. This. Is. Crazy.

I guess I have a couple more months to figure out what I really truly want to do and I'm sure it'll take all of those few months to figure it out. In the meantime I guess I'll just go out and enjoy the college experience. :)